Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Calm Down

I'm not functioning anymore. I'm paralyzed. I'm not the same old Jaq. Even prayers can't help me. No amount of consoling can help me. They say it takes two to tango, but all the while I'm the only one dancing the dance. And he has another partner.

Give me peace of mind. I want serenity. Where can I find it?

I don't care what other people will say. Anyway, they never really cared. I don't care what happens... what consequences I'll get from this-- being mean. I'm tired of being miss goody two shoes. Nobody wants me to be happy. Because all they care about are themselves and how beneficial it will be with me. I'm tired of being used and abused.

Somehow, I need to calm down after going through a battle. Will someone teach me how?