Tuesday, August 28, 2007


Nothing much to blog nowadays... maybe it's because I'm a bit pre-occupied lately. But just so, I miss blogging. Just bloghoppin'

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

My Annual Plan

Yes I know, it's August already and here I am-- just starting to make my life plans. Lol!

I don't know what came over me today while I was on training and we're just doing nothing. Most of the time when I'm not pre-occupied, thoughts come in out of nowhere. So going back, I found myself asking "after the chaos that happened the past few months, what's next?"

Then, the management team of our account visited our class to introduce themselves. They're going to be our bosses once we hit the floor. Hmm, I've been working in this industry for almost 4 years... I was never promoted in CVG even though I was given the chance to handle several leadership responsibilities... I applied thrice, but I just got until the final interview... maybe, I should give myself 3 months to get used to the account, 6 months to a year to be promoted as a Team Manager. This is a pioneer account, we are a pioneer batch... I should be promoted already!

I'm ambitious. I have to because my daughter is depending on me. So if I still don't get promoted here with my new employer, much as I regret to leave the country-- but I have to and I sure will-- have to go out abroad to seek for greener pasture... for me and my only family-- Jada.

With the cost of living and the current wage I'm getting, I can't turn my other "bigger" plans into reality. I've got a lot of bills to pay. I'm not ashame to admit that I'm in debt-- and I need to finish them off so that I can start anew. With two families depending on me, sometimes I have to set aside paying my other debts so that I can also provide for them... but this has to stop. Heck, they're all grown-ups! It's high time that I should only think of me and my daughter's future and nobody else.

I hope luck's on my side now-- and forever. Please...

Saturday, August 18, 2007


Here I am again, blogging because I can't sleep. Because I'm waiting for a phone call... wait, did I say "waiting?" Sorry, I blogged days ago that waiting is something which I hated doing most. But just because of one being (if you're my friend it's not hard for you to decipher this), now waiting is an art that I need to learn. Expectation is always there, you see. However...

I really don't find it healthy at all... pausing and changing the pace of your life because I need to wait. The world turns round so fast... life is always in a hurry nowadays... and there are more things worthy of my attention. I always bear that in mind, but most of the time I forgot it... hell yah-- my heart is bigger than my brain y'know.

So, so stupid!!! Until now, I'm still trying to get a hold of myself and put it back into place. Waiting is really hard for me, I can't afford to waste time. So Jaq-- better get movin' or the bus of life will leave you! You're not stupid... just almost crazy (in love)!

Friday, August 17, 2007

Hurray!!! PayPerPost

Finally, my blog got approved for payperpost!!! You just don't know how long I have waited for my blog to be considered in this site.

In case you're wondering why this is an important "issue" for bloggers like me... payperpost is one of the first to offer earn-while-you-blog opportunity. Meaning, you can turn your writing skills not only as a hobby but also a chance for you to get extra income-- and you can do this anywhere... as long as you're hook in the www!

I admit... I created this blog because of only one reason-- and that is to earn $$$. The time I started blogging was the time I got retrenched from my homebased job. My ex-boss advised me to blog so that I can earn extra income. Now, how is that possible?

First is you need to sign-up as a blogger and register your blog. You'll not wait that long for the approval notice (which will be sent via your registered email address). Once your blog got approved, you can already login and check for open opportunities available to you. After you have chosen an "opportunity", you just needed to write something about it. Once your article/post has been approved, it'll be processed for payment. Of course, you need to read the FAQ site about for more detailed information.

Now, I'm more inspired to write and blog again. Not only it's a chance for me to hone my vocabulary skills, I get also paid for it! Amazing!

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Quotable Quote Part 2

Received this from one of the forwarded text messages-- got stuck in my cellphone ;-)

it is not "Destiny" that
determines "Love"
it is "Choice"
Our so-called "Destiny" is a lie...

Relationships last long
not because they're destined to last long.

Relationships last long
because two brave people made a choice -
to keep it, to fight for it, and to work for it.

Meanwhile, other relationships fail
not because they're destined to fail.
They failed because one of the two, or both,
made the choice -
to set each of the other free...

Isn't that sad?!

My New Hobby

Lately, I've been getting fond of online tarot reading. It just started out of curiousity... but nothing really serious. You can try it out for fun.

But I admit that I have consulted a "soul card reader" November of last year. I was really confused at that time-- with a lot of issues. But that doesn't mean that I have withdrawn from my relationship with God. I even went to Manaoag after that. But being human, sometimes... we are in search for quick answers. And Sandy Allan, the soul card reader, is really good that I have even recommended her to some of my friends. Beware tough that you might get to experience the so-called "nose-bleed" during the reading session because she interprets and talks in straight English. Sooo fluent... But then, I assure those who wanted to try this out that she's really got the gift in soul reading.

OK, not being preachy or anything... but I would just still like to remind everyone who'll try this that this is just for F-U-N... and it's still us who's in charge of our own lives, together with strong faith in God. Everything will turn out the way we wanted it to be-- if it's for our own good.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Whatever We Imagine

I can't sleep... it's already 3 a.m. and I have work later. I can't afford to be late since I've just started. But I've been lying in bed for 2 hours now so I've decided to blog (weird, uh)! And oh well, enjoy some music while blogging.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I don't know what's with me... I've been like this ever since... a worrier. I tend to over think up to the point that I end up worrying and get frustrated. That's why I like chit-chatting with friends, at least there's exchange of ideas. For me, it's healthy.

Just like the past week, I had breakfast with one of my close friends. I poured my heart's woes to her. I was so troubled. Have a lot of negative energies in me... but talking to her got me recharge. And she was able to analyze what's going on in me-- like I'm talking to a shrink. Hehe.

But what she just advice me is that I should avoid controlling my life. I may have simple plans and wishes but I should leave everything up to the Lord. I hope I'll succeed... and lessen my being a control-freak!

Sunday, August 12, 2007


Oh my!!! I was only able to appreciate Madonna's Borderline just now! Best way to tell someone "hey, I'm not a push-over baby! so now I'm setting things straight..."

Don't you just love the lyrics?? Here it goes...

Borderline by Madonna

Something in the way your love that won't let me be
I don't want to be your pris'ner so baby won't you set me free
Stop playing with my heart, finish what you start
When you make my love come down
If you want me let me know baby let it show
Honey don't you fool around

Just tryin' to understand (understand)
I've given all I've can cause you got the best of me

Borderline feels like I'm going to loose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline
Borderline feels like I'm going to loose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Something in your eyes is making such a fool of me
When you hold me in your arms you love me till I just cant see
But then you let me down, when I look around
Baby you just cant be found
Stop driving me away I just wanna stay
Something I just got to say

Just trying to understand (understand)
I've given all I can
'Coz you've got the best of me

Borderline feels like I'm going to loose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline
Borderline feels like I'm going to loose my mind
You just keep on pushing my love over the borderline

Keep pushing me, keep pushing me
Keep pushing my love
C'mon baby come on darling, yeahhhh

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Just Got Lucky

I really don't know what to write at this moment. Nor do I know what title to give this latest post. But if there's one word which motivated me to write this blog today-- it's envy.

Why are other people so damn lucky? She's got everything... money, family, love, career-- name it and she has it. Just so you know who is the "her" I'm pertaining to-- she's my ex-boss from my homebased job.

Everyday, I visit her blog because she posts a lot of interesting topics. It's also a way for me to get a little update about my ex-boss' from US. I miss them, of course, but I don't miss my job because-- just because. Now going back to her, aside from earning a thousand dollars every month, I also learned thru her blog she also has side jobs in which she's also being paid in dollars. She works in her own time, at the comfort of her home and at the same time, she's with her daughter while working! Isn't that perfect?

She's got a loving husband, an independent mom, a supportive mother-in-law...

I know... her luck is hers alone. I'm happy for her. But I hope I'll get to be as lucky as her someday soon.