My Plans for 2010

Since I can't sleep... let me take the opportunity to blog some more. After all, it is not everyday that I have free time to do my personal online stuff-- err... except Farmville, hehe.

Starting next year, I plan to:
>February is my daughter's birth month so I wanted to take her to her dreamworld Disneyland Hong Kong and be with her Mickey Mouse. ✔
>Move-out from my family and have a place of our "own"... I needed so much privacy.✔
>I want to go back to school and finish my course. Anyway, two and a half years will just fly by without me noticing it. X
>Come July, I want to go to either Kuala Lumpur or Singapore.✔ (I went to 3 countries-- not just one and will still be going out, *hopefully*-- with two more out-of-the-country trips before the year ends)
>Go out of town whenever it is possible. Unleash the "wanderer" in me.✔

And so to make this happen, I have to work hard, hard, hard so that I can earn more, more, more.

A little bit...

I've been an inconsistent blogger. My mind's not very creative lately. Blame it on stress.

I can't think straight and I am suffering insomnia again because of stress. Most often, I had to be absent from work because it's either I was not feeling well or I don't have the energy to do stuff. And I'll be resigning soon!

I'm looking forward to it. So happy that I'll be with my kiddo again -- 24/7! Though I already mentioned I'm stressed most of the time... the main reason why I don't want to go to the office everyday, why I don't want to leave this country, why I just want to stay at home most of the time-- is her. Even though her antics get into my nerves at times... still, I so lurvvv my little one.

I maybe a little bit sad because I have to leave my job... but then, I know the sacrifice is all worth it. :)

Would You Be A Cool Parent?

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need. You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law. While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top. You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would You Be a Cool Parent?

My Fair Baby

I'm so proud to be her mommy... and so is her daddy :)

Sexy Back!!!

Here's my daughter's sexy back... just like mommy's (lol)

Simply irresistable!

Mommy... WABYUH!

I just woke up one day and saw her sitting while staring on my face... then she just said--

"Mommy, wabyu!!!"

That just made my day... my life... =)

The Value of Security

Being a parent is a big responsibility. You must not only provide for your child’s basic needs, but you must also think of their future and be prepared for emergencies. Knock on wood—but then again, a parent must be always practical, in terms of saving and spending. And not all expenditure is a liability. Think of investing in Money Back Life Insurance. You might not see its benefits right away, but then you will get to appreciate it by the time your insurance policy matures.

At first, you might be turned-off with high insurance premiums. But there’s always an option. You can look for companies offering insurance quoting services. You can choose the amount which would best fit your budget.

So you see, saving on insurance premiums is much wiser than just putting your money in a bank. Because with insurance-- the amount of time you started with your premium is valued together with its monetary worth. The earlier you invest your money, the higher cash earnings you can get in return.

Christmas 2007

Unfortunately, my Christmas was not merry at all. I'm still sick (not just ill) and because of this I can't take baby Jada out to the mall. I feel so guilty. I've been neglecting my "motherly" duties for the past few weeks because of work, and now because of this illness. Argh! I really wish I get well soon enough before new year!

The only thing that kept me busy this 25th... watching Labyrinth. Happy Holidays to y'all!

Will this a Merry Xmas for me?

Unfortunately, I've got myself measles. Just two days before Christmas day and here I am with rashes all-over my body. I may look ready for New Year (with the little spots) but I don't like the idea of being ill this holidays. I was planning to take my daughter to MOA because there will be fireworks display but I guess I have to reschedule it some other time.

Get well soon to me.

A Day in the Life of a Mommy

A Day in the Life of a Mommy
How many kids do you have?:	1
Would you consider yourself a easy going mom or a strict mom?:	easy going
What time a day does your kids get up, or, did get up ?:	9am
How long does it take to clean your house from one end to the other?:	10 minutes
Have you ever been thrown up on?:	no
Has your kid ever enjoyed seeing how many toys could go into the tiolet?:	not really
Then flushed?:	no
Whats the definition of.."maybe" ?:	a bit more of yes
How many electronics have been destroyed by them?:	1
Have your kids ever gotten a hold of any of YOUR personal play toys?:	yes
Has your kids ever thought it was funny to play in there own poop?:	no
Have your shirts you were ever been used for snot rags while you wore them?:	yes
What do you use to clean your childs face with?:	cloth diaper
Whats the most embaressing moment that you have experienced?:	mistakenly went to boy's cr
Do you ever wish you could go one day without being called mommy?:	no

Who doesn't love Jollibee?

Do you know anybody, any kid for the matter-- who doesn't love Jollibee? Before I had Jada, I've been always wondering "why do kids love this big-eyed, wide-smiled character?" Now I know the reason... because he seems friendly, jolly and charming for kids. And for them, he looks cute and approachable!

And now every time we passed by Jollibee's "house", it's a must that I have her get near him and touch him or else, she'll be very upset.

That's the power of charm!

It's Christmas again

Here comes Christmas time once again. My humble abode doesn't even have the spirit or ambience of Christmas yet. And I feel that I owe it to my daughter since as we all adults believe, this special season is especially for kids. My plan is to setup Christmas lights on the wall and shape it into a Christmas tree. However, I don't have time to clean the house, no time to even organize my place. I only have two days rest every week and it's either I sleep all day, run some important errands or spend some quality time with Jada. But then, enough with these excuses... At long last I was able to put my plans into action... and boy was Jada so happy to see the lights blinking when she woke up!

Yes, it's now officially Christmas for my baby! Merry 'Mimas!

Working to make a Living

Alas! I'm so happy to find out that we have work on Thanksgiving... weird huh?! But I'm in dire need nowadays and resting is not going to help me with this need. I don't know how what else do I need to do in order for me to make ends meet every day. I'm working damn hard so that I can pay all my debts but most of the time-- it ain't enough. Well... thank God there's Jada-- she's the only inspiration and reason why I have to try living this very challenging life.

Bonding moments with Jada

Jada and I spent the weekend with my officemates in one of the executive rooms at Linden Suites last Friday. Actually, it's our class' prize for winning from the PPHD launch held two weeks ago at Phi Bar. I know our class will win, for we got our own class' version of "Destiny's Child/Pussycat Dolls"... even they're not full-pledge girls (if you know what I mean!). Anyhow, they're super talented and our Kiwi bosses like their performance sooo much. So, the credit really goes out to them. Nikki, our Kiwi trainor, bought our class 6 boxes of pizza as her treat for making her class win.

I decided to take her along with me so that she can get some fresh air and comfortable bed to sleep with even for a night even though she's a bit unwell last week. Almost every two weeks, Jada's either got a fever, colds, cough or all. Too bad, I don't have HMO yet since I'm still under proby status with the new company. Our house is too small and we can't afford to squeeze-in her own toddler bed. The ventilation is not good enough as well, which I think is the main reason why she's always had cough and colds.

Going back, she had her fun at the jacuzzi. I know it's gonna do good for her because of the warm water. But then, I never imagine that I can spend time with my friends, with my daughter tagged along and have so much fun at the same time.

Worries away

The last two weeks that passed hasn't been good for me. I got flu, and so did Jada. And instead of us spending the weekend playing and bonding, we ended up bonding with the doctors and nurses 'coz I rushed her to the nearest hospital.

Now, I got to appreciate the need to own an HMO. For emergency cases like this. Lately, Jada's been getting a little "sickly". She's either on fever, LBM or allergies. I've been taking care of her personally because I thought it's just her way of "diverting" my attention. But it's different this last time she got ill... I really cried while I was carrying her in my arms. Her fever was on 40°C and she's sleeping as if she's not breathing anymore. Even if I tried waking her up, she just kept her eyes close and the meds were not helping her.

I just wept silently so as not to draw attention to us. And prayed. I don't know what came over me... all I thought back then was that I was a big failure. I wasn't able to provide her complete family and good home. If things would get worse, I was ready to let go of her if that's what God wants for us. But I know if that will happen, I might as well go with her.

After a few minutes, she opened her eyes and hold my cheek. And smiled. I just hugged her tight then. And then, the doctors sent us home because her test got negative result. Hayyy, now I know how it feels to be in hell and in heaven at the same time.

I'm so over-dramatic, I know. But you can never control your feelings especially if it involves the person you love so much.

My Annual Plan

Yes I know, it's August already and here I am-- just starting to make my life plans. Lol!

I don't know what came over me today while I was on training and we're just doing nothing. Most of the time when I'm not pre-occupied, thoughts come in out of nowhere. So going back, I found myself asking "after the chaos that happened the past few months, what's next?"

Then, the management team of our account visited our class to introduce themselves. They're going to be our bosses once we hit the floor. Hmm, I've been working in this industry for almost 4 years... I was never promoted in CVG even though I was given the chance to handle several leadership responsibilities... I applied thrice, but I just got until the final interview... maybe, I should give myself 3 months to get used to the account, 6 months to a year to be promoted as a Team Manager. This is a pioneer account, we are a pioneer batch... I should be promoted already!

I'm ambitious. I have to because my daughter is depending on me. So if I still don't get promoted here with my new employer, much as I regret to leave the country-- but I have to and I sure will-- have to go out abroad to seek for greener pasture... for me and my only family-- Jada.

With the cost of living and the current wage I'm getting, I can't turn my other "bigger" plans into reality. I've got a lot of bills to pay. I'm not ashame to admit that I'm in debt-- and I need to finish them off so that I can start anew. With two families depending on me, sometimes I have to set aside paying my other debts so that I can also provide for them... but this has to stop. Heck, they're all grown-ups! It's high time that I should only think of me and my daughter's future and nobody else.

I hope luck's on my side now-- and forever. Please...

We are Family!!!

This was taken last March 3, 2007 during Jada's first birthday celebration. Credits to my bestie Owie. I'll be posting some more soon.

Jada Kulet

She's really growing up... fast!

She can follow simple instructions like "get mommy your powder" or "lay down" when she's ready to sleep. She also knows that if it's hot, she shouldn't touch it.

She also can say a few words-- ma'mam (for water), On-on (his uncle Ronron) or Ang-ang (for uncle Janjan), am (food-- this one we didn't taught her though) and mama (her lola).

At times she's a handful... I admit that there are times she's getting into my nerves and would try my patience. Especially if I told her not to touch something she curious with, she'll either slowly put her hands into it or quickly slap it. Argh!

You're such a darling my baby Jada! *kulet*

I Miss My Daughter...

Everytime I need to go to work, I have to drag myself and make my feet step out of the house. Why? Ok, aside from being unmotivated... the number 1 reason is the fact that I hate leaving my daughter. Even though the reason is valid (that I need to work), it's hard for a working mom to leave her daughter for more than 8 hours a day.

She's still sleeping every time I leave and when I come home, I'm already tired... making it hard for me to spend a little time with her and play. But still, I try to exert some effort to bond with her... especially during weekends.

I know that right now it doesn't matter who's with her most of the time. But I just can't stop this guilty feeling. And I know that when the time comes she's matured enough to understand everything, I won't be having difficulties explaining why mommy needs to be out of the house during day time.

How I wish I'm rich and never need to work for our living.

My little darling Jada

I just love her!.. words can't describe my love for my daughter. And there are times that I just wanna cry simply by looking at her-- because I'm happy. She's my happiness.

How I love her laugh, her smile, her "kakulitan", her antics, her tiny little fingers, her thighs, her feet... EVERYTHING!

I want to give her everything... all that I can have in my power-- just for her.

I promise to be a good mommy, my Jada. I'm expecting nothing in return from you but love and respect. Always remember that there's nothing in this world that you can do that mommy won't forgive.

If one day mommy have failed you-- in any way, do always remember that mommy is not perfect. But my love for you is...