Waiting in Vain

If there's one thing I really hate doing-- it's waiting.

Here I am, waiting for my salary... waiting for the great job opportunity (job offer)... waiting for my backpay... waiting for my other "side jobs" to release my pay... waiting for "him"... waiting for Friday to come... waiting... waiting... and endless waiting.

I'm really not good at it. And this is what God is teaching me... to learn the art of waiting. It's trying my patience. It's making me cry. But I know, this will only make me stronger.

Unhealthy

This has been an ongoing issue for a looong time. Though I'm jobless, I have loss weight again. And my eye bag is on top of another eye bag (imagine that). I'm really getting frustrated. How can I get a job if I'm unhealthy? Who will want an unhealthy employee? And my problem right now is that I need to get medical certificate from my doctor certifying that I'm fit to work.

Now I understand the meaning of health is wealth.

Guilty as charged

I've been neglecting my blog site for several days now... blame it on job hunting, essay writing and house chores... I never thought I'll be this busy even if I don't have a job... In fact, I don't get enough sleep... the good thing about this is is that at least I'm with my daughter 60% of my time here at home.

I'm hoping to land on a job that would not only help me financially, but also-- give me more time to spend with my babies. After all, I don't live to work-- I live for my family.

My current job criteria are: *drumroll*
- it must be day job
- the pay should at least be the same as the amount I was earning before
- not stressful

Yes, I'm choosy. But that's because I chose to be a mom and a wife to my family and not just a breadwinner for them. And I know God's gonna give me that kind of job soon... He knows I'm worth it. ;-)

I hate Flash 8

Argh! I've been studying how to create flash animation for the website that we're about to redeploy. The design is finished already except for this one part. But until now I can't seem to make the globe rotate the way I wanted to. I thought I can work my way with this just by self-study. But my time is running out. Now I believe my instructor's advice about this program-- that I needed to take formal tutorial lessons for this.

But I need money first. Or else, how can I enroll myself in one?

Job Hunting

My client chose one of my design layouts... Thank God! The only problem left concerning this project is the globe animation. After that, everything's set to go.

Now I'm totally cleared from CVG, I'm ready to start anew with my career. Actually, I have scheduled interviews with two companies this week. I hope to start working next week for I'm already running out of budget.

Tough Job

Yipee! The sleepless nights and hardwork paid a lot. I was able to master my designing skills. And-- call me conceited, but comparing from their old website design I feel my client's gonna be happy with the layouts (with fingers crossed)! *grin*

Just a sample...

I was able to create four mock-ups. And I'm just waiting for their approval. Hope they'll like it. I now can design web pages. Looking forward to getting more projects.

Timeout

So, it's web designing for me now. But even though I find it hard to be "creative" once again, I'm really having fun. And now, I'm just taking a short break... I've been trying to finish my client's homepage and started around 7pm studying flash 8. Oh well, this is not all about money. I'm after learning more while earning alongside.

So enough of blogging. I'm now going back to work! ;-)

Career's New Challenge

Yes! At long last, my new employer emailed me the project that they wanted me to do for them. If ever, it's gonna be my first ever official web design! But the biggest challenge for me is to create flash images for this website-- which is something I don't know but I promise myself, I'll do self-study. After all, some people have been able to do this just by using help articles and online tutorials. And most importantly, I need this job sooo bad!

Wish me luck!!!

Transformers... reminiscing your childhood days

I know... a lot have been said about this movie already. Sorry, I'm a fan of this movie. And I can't stop myself from posting this pix ;)

More than meets the eye, huh

One More Try lyrics by Kuh Ledesma

Last Sunday while I was watching ASAP, they paid tribute to one of the great OPM composer Cecille Azarcon. I never knew that she wrote most of the OPM songs that I like. And this song-- One more Try-- I find this one very nice. Very apt for those people in a rocky relationship.

Should we stay or should we say goodbye
Walk away or give it one more try
What a waste to let our dreams just fly
And as the days go by
We'll always wonder why.

Are we glad to find one day we're free
Is this what we really want to be
Brand new lives, we need to have so much
It really is quite tough
When love is not enough.

Tell me why did we find each other
Only to part ways in the end
Tell me how we learned to love each other
And tell me why two people have to change.

Was it pride that made us drift away
Hurting words we should not even say
Hold my hand and look straight in my eyes
If we can't say goodbye
Then we're worth one more try.

The Weekend that was...

Last Sunday was my birthday. Day before that, I got terminated. Then, we had an argument. On the day itself, my mom and I almost clashed again. And I was a bit unwell.

Late in the afternoon, we met at the mall and decided to forget the previous night's discussion. Spent the night watching our brothers play arcade games and we played with our daughter. Had dinner. But the best part of the day was watching Transformers. Really great movie! So at least, my natal day turned out to be special. Twas very memorable... for I was able to spend it with my family.

Quit Playing Games with My Heart

After the last time we had our first major fight and I put closure to our relationship... he's coming back again. And now he's saying he can't afford to loose me. Oh well, such sweet words coming from the person who've caused you so much pain.

I admit. I'm stupid. I'm entertaining his calls again. Of course, there's still love-- but now, it's mix with anger. But what made me talk to him again was the fact that he's now thinking about our kid. Right now, I'm not a 100% convinced with his intentions. I've learned my lesson and I won't let myself be fooled again. If he really wants us back... if he really wants me back, he needs to prove it. And it will take some time for me to accept him (if ever he's proven himself) again. If not, at least I don't have anything to lose.

He makes me happy... but I just can't forget what had happened. It almost ruined me. And I won't let it happen again.