Friday, November 28, 2008

December 6

... my husband's birthday... I still consider him my husband. Call me a fool, martyr or whatever-- I don't care. Believe me, I've tried so hard to forget him. But until now, I still love him. And here I am, listening to Taylor Dayne's "Love will lead You back." That's how jaded I am.

I even made a letter-- which I am still undecided if I will give it to him on his birthday or not for I might regret it. Or I might not be able to fulfill everything that I wrote there.

Well, I still have a few days to think. Make me wise.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Novena to the Blessed Virgin Mary (Never Known To Fail)

Oh, most beautiful flower of Mount Carmel, fruitful vine, splendour of Heaven.
Blessed Mother of the Son of God; Immaculate Virgin, assist me in my necessity.
Oh, Star of the Sea, help me and show me you are my Mother.
Oh, Holy Mary, Mother of God, Queen of Heaven and Earth, I humbly beseech you from the bottom of my heart to succour me in my necessity. (Mention your request here).
There are none that can withstand your power.

O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to Thee.
O show me herein You are my Mother.
O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to Thee.
O show me herein You are my Mother.
O Mary conceived without sin, pray for us who have recourse to Thee.
O show me herein You are my Mother.

Sweet Mother, I place this cause in Your hands.
Sweet Mother, I place this cause in Your hands.
Sweet Mother, I place this cause in Your hands.
3 our father , 3 hail Mary , 3 glory be


Blessed Virgin Mary Mount Carmel - 3 day prayer - To strengthen marriage, personal needs; say this prayer for 3 consecutive days and then you must publish it and it will be granted to you.

Friday, November 21, 2008

Jobless... and loveless :(

You're reading it right... I am again jobless. I resigned recently because I can't take the politics and the unusual "payroll" issues. Well, I know some of you might blame me for being so idealistic. But that how I am...

And again, my never-ending problem... I am still loveless... where's my destiny?!

Some people are really unlucky... I belong in that group :-(

Saturday, November 1, 2008

My Fair Baby


I'm so proud to be her mommy... and so is her daddy :)

Saturday, September 20, 2008

No Air

I can't sleep right now. My mind's a bit tired already. I'm so much of a worrier. I am thinking of him again. I'm also thinking of work and my "critics."

I don't know why I still love him. I apologize for being so stupid. I am very much jaded that I can't get over the fact that we're over years ago. And he is with another girl. Everytime I look at our kid, it is him that I see. I can truly say that it's genuine love I feel for him and our kid. However...

He doesn't love me anymore. But my heart won't stop loving him. And I know I should. I'm just stubborn. I should avoid attending their family gatherings even if they insist that we should be there. I must stop. The more I get attached to his family, the more my expectations and hopes grow. Yes, his love for our kid is there and will always be there. But his love for me ended years ago. And even if he says he'll come back to us after he fulfills his dreams... still I shouldn't hold on to that promise. A promise which he himself is not sure of. And I must stop. Wake up.

Now at work, I don't know why I keep on getting punished by some of our bitter ex-employees. As if they didn't do anything wrong. And I don't know why I can't do my job without getting criticized. And why don't they just shut-up. I worked so hard even depriving myself of rest and quality time with my kid... but they just want me down. Envy. This is the only reason why they do this. Please, just work and prove your employer that you are trustworthy. Because I have done so. That's why I am here.

Forgive me for ranting. I just need to breathe these worries out. So help me Lord.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

New Layout

I'm thinking... maybe it's time for a new layout. I'm kindda sick n' tired of mah ol' leh-yut! It may take some time before I can create a new one... but then the "creative" me has long been sleeping. Sadddd :'(

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

The Weekend that Was

This weekend was one of the best weekends I had for this year. My family (my original family) got reunited again and it's as if nothing ever happened that cause everyone hurt and sadness. I'm so glad that I saw my parents smiling and exchanging jokes about each other. At least they're friends. Of course, that's good. Here are some of the photos I took when we went out last Sunday...





see?! they're enjoying the get-together...













yum! yum! yummy kwabs...











the mouth-watering buttered shrimp...








But then, this only made me realize one thing... no matter what happens amongst all of you, you'll always end up a family.

Thank God for that wonderful sunday...

Monday, July 14, 2008

What goes around comes around

This one's a personal matter, but I can't contain the mixed emotions I'm havin' right now. Just to give you an overview...

I admit, I'm short-tempered (except where my family's concerned). Blame it on lack of sleep that sometimes I can't accept "petty reasons" being given. I am really friendly if I feel that a person is worthy of the 100% pure friendship I'm giving... but if you mess with me-- sorry but that's the end of the line. I don't exactly "get even" but I pray for karma with a vengeance.

I've just discovered something that made me "somehow happy"... it's the misery of a person because of the repercussions of the complications she/he gave us. There's truth to the saying that what you give is what you will indeed receive. Piece of advice to that person?.. Think!

Another Monday...

... and I'll continue blogging later. Just dropping by to say "hello!" to all. :)

Just for Laughs

This is what we call "Pinoy Humor." Really, really funny!


If this didn't tickle your funny bone at all, maybe it's time for you to visit a shrink.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Our Lady of Manaoag

It's 2:30 in the morning... I'm preparing on my way to Manaoag to hear mass. I've made a promise to myself that I'll go there on my 30th birthday to thank the Lord and Mother Mary for all the blessings they've given me and my family. But since my birthday fell on a Tuesday, I've got to work and postpone my trip.

I started my ocassional trips to Our Lady of Manaoag last December 2006. A week after, my wish somehow came true! And the Lord is so good to me that everytime I go there, He somehow comforts me spiritually that when I leave and go to Manila my soul is recharge again. I feel that I owe it to Him and to myself that I do this kind of spiritual trips for this bonds me to my religion.

But now here I am... going back to Pangasinan for the nth time and so excited to go there alone (yes, alone!) for this is the perfect "me" moment.

My 30th

'Twas last Tuesday... another year older-- but am I a really a lil bit wiser this time?

Alright, I'm already 30 years old. I just can't imagine myself at 40s and 50s. Well, the question is will I make the right decisions for me and my daughter? Life is really complicated and so is my mind. But then again I don't want to think about the complications of life anymore. I've decided that I'll just let life think for me and I'll just do whatever I think is for the good of all.

Conclusion: Happy 30th birthday to me!

Thanks to all those who greeted me... but next time I wanted more than greetings (lols).

Sunday, May 25, 2008

I'm A Blogger

... but I don't have time for it lately :(

I miss blogging!!!

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Positive... on a High

I know I deserve to be happy
That's why now I'm moving on
Leaving the grudges behind
And just now I'm positive about life again
There's really truth to the saying "you'll never know unless you try"
I'm so happy I've tried
Now at least I know, it ain't so hard to forget you :)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Neglect

Yep, I know I know... it has been so looong since I last updated my blog. Well, let me tell you what happened--

Ever since I got promoted, I haven't been sleeping that much. Why? Because I am so OC with my new task. I check every bit of detail my team member's submit to me so that I can correct it right away. I want everything to run smoothly. I read and read and read almost everyday until I get to learn the ins and outs of the campaign because I came from a different campaign... I don't want to give wrong info to my team members. Being a leader is a very big responsibility... and I take it seriously.

I am realllyyyy sorry for my looonnnggg time absence. ='(

Monday, April 21, 2008

Sexy Back!!!

Here's my daughter's sexy back... just like mommy's (lol)

Simply irresistable!

Sunday, February 3, 2008

At Long Last!

After four years of working in an office-based call center... who knew that my chances of getting recognized and promoted is now?! Still a homebased worker, I'm now an assistant to the team manager! Yipee...

Although I'm still on-probation as SME (subject matter expert), I really don't mind it at all. I love the exposure. And though I was kiddingly ranting about lots of reports that I need to do everyday, I am really enjoying my job right now. Because even when I was with CVG, there's only one position I'm aiming for-- the Team Lead post.

Actually, the transition of our account from one management to another management had really been quite a shock and too instant for all of us. But with all honesty, I welcomed the change whole-heartedly because I've got a hunch that I'll be more secured working as an independent contractor with the new management who'll handle us-- which is co-owned by our account's stockholder. Isn't that great!?! Another relief is that at long last, I won't be bothered anymore working with power-trippers! Lols.

So please forgive me if I've been neglecting my blog for several days now... I miss blogging and blog-hopping so much, I just don't have spare time the past few days to do so.

Friday, February 1, 2008

Psalm 78:72

"With skillful hands He led them"


When you are unsure which course to take, totally submit your own judgement to that of the Spirit of God, asking Him to shut every door except the right one. But meanwhile keep moving ahead and consider the absence of a direct indication from God to be the evidence of His will that you are on His path. And as you continue down the long road, you will find that He has gone before you, locking doors you otherwise would have been inclined to enter. Yet you can be sure that somewhere beyond the locked doors is one He has left unlocked. And when you open it and walk through, you will find yourself face to face with a turn in the river of opportunity -- one that is broader and deeper than anything you ever dared to imagine, even in your wildest dreams. So set sail on it, because it flows to the open sea.

God often guides us through our circumstances. One moment, our way may seem totally blocked, but then suddenly some seemingly trivial incident occurs, appearing as nothing to others but speaking volumes to the keen eye of faith. And sometimes these events are repeated in various ways in response to our prayers. They certainly are not haphazard results of chance but are God opening up the way we should walk, by directing our circumstances. And they begin to multiply as we advance toward our goal, just as the lights of a city seem to increase as we speed toward it while traveling at night. F.B.Meyer.

If you go to God for guidance, He will guide you. But do not expect Him to console you by showing you His list of purposes concerning you, when you have displayed distrust or even half-trust in Him. What He will do, if you trust Him and go cheerfully ahead when He shows you the way, is to guide you still farther. Horace Bushnell

As moves my fragile boat across the storm-swept sea,
Great waves beat o'er her side, as north wind blows;
Deep in the darkness hid lie threat'ning rocks and reefs;
But all of these, and more, my Pilot knows.

Sometimes when darkness falls, and every light's gone out,
I wonder to what port my frail ship goes;
Although the night be long, and restless all my hours,
My distant goal, I'm sure, my Pilot knows

Thomas Curtis Clark


I got this from GirlTalk and it's such a nice piece... I've posted this already in my multiply account and I would like to repost this here so that I can share it some more-- this time with all of YOU... Hope this will help you, too!

Friendship Award Tag

Got this tag from Lynn. Nice to be considered as one of your online buddy! =)



Friendship Day is a special day...

It is a special time when you can tell your friends how much you appreciate them and show them how happy and thankful you are to have them...
Well, it is the best time to let them know how you feel everyday...
A Friend is someone who knows all about you and loves you anyway!!!

I want to share this tag to Gracie, Andrea, Janneth, and Moccalyn.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Big Bang World Record

Thanks for tagging me Gracie! =) This one sounds F-U-N!


Once you have posted this list and added your own site, leave me a comment with your site name and URL. I will add you to the master list. Come back and copy the master list back to your site, often. This process will allow late-comers to get as much benefit as the first ones in.


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You do not have to be tagged to play along. This game is simple and so are the rules.

1. Copy from *Start Copy Here* through *End Copy Here*
2. Add your site(s) to the list. Just be sure to post at each site you add.
3. Tag or don’t tag, your choice, however, the more tags you create the bigger the list will grow.
4. Let me know your blog’s name and URL by leaving me a comment. I will add you to the master list. (In my blog’s case wherein I’ve disabled the comment’s box, leave it on the shoutbox .)
5. Come back and copy the master list back to your site, often. This process will allow late-comers to get as much link benefit as the first ones in.


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Now, I am passing these awards to Christine, Dzoi, Litzie, Summer and Tsina.


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